Saturday, November 05, 2005

The Cry Of Our Hearts

(read this while browsing)

There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,
It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.
I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,
What is to come, to my dismay.
As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,
more and more comes, more and more depression.

I assure myself everything is ok!
But who am I fooling?
Then I burst into a spirit of rage.
I have questions, and there are answers.
But I'm afraid and much too weak,
When I try to explain,
I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.
But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,
But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.

I feel intimidated sometimes by others,
But as I said "This is how I feel"
The pain in me is very real.
I lose control, my thought go wild,
and here I am only a child.
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you knew what I fought.
I need my thoughts held captive.

Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal
and you'll help me think positive.
I'm hurting, I need you!
Please don't give up on me!
One day I will always make you smile!
Love,
Your Child

9 comments:

Sujit said...

Its a nice.. one..

Mitesh said...

Though i cant feel the pain that you are going thru, but i can understand the feelings and emotion behind it, and the only thing i can say is dont lose ur hope, cuz hope is the only way of survival..the day u lose ur hope everything is over.

Keep faith in almighty and he will help u in all the ways.

cheerup sweetheart!!

Aashi said...

Thanks Sujith and Mitesh.
Mitesh i have faith in Almighty,,u know it well...if only the docs tell me clearly abt things i'll not b so tensed...it will be much better na if i know ::life or death..

hope and love said...

we all have these feelings at one time or another..
keep smiling..
:))

sinusoidally said...

Such is life and no matter how strong we are we need support...He is always there...

Aashi said...

hope and love::
iam trying my best to keep smiling !!

Aashi said...

Sinusoidally::
trust HE ia always with us.!!
thanks for dropping in here!

diana christine said...

ah, as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight...what rich insight! if i fight myself i am guaranteed a loss. what an intriguing thought...

your struggle is deep and poignant and i pray for your relief to be soon...

Aashi said...

feminine expressions::
thanks for ur good will.
welcome here!