I know you love me
but I don't see you coming,
so I'll come to you;
I'm on my way.
I see you standing there;
so close but still barely out of reach;
I need to be closer to you, so
I'm on my way.
I know your kiss;
still remember tasting it on my lips;
oh how much I want that again;
Im on my way.
I hear your voice;
how perfect it sounds;
it is drawing me nearer;
I'm on my way.
I smell your cologne,
it just makes me melt;
even though I'm on my knees,
I'm on my way.
I can still feel your arms,
you swallowing me with one hug;
I'd die to feel them around me again;
I'm on my way.
I see you again, but hear someone else's voice;
I can smell a different perfume, and I feel the tears coming;
I turn away and one rolls down, I taste it on my lips;
I'm on my way, away.
I don't have to be able to touch you,
but please don't abandon me;
I guess if we can-t be friends I'm leaving;
I'm on my way, away.
I've moved up wind away from you;
I cant smell your sweet scent anymore;
I still have my back to you; I'm leaving;
I'm on my way, away.
She has probably dropped you;
I hear you calling;
I wanna leave you but I can't, so baby
I'm on my way.
Only a moment until I can taste your kiss;
I can still only see you,
yet I already taste happiness;
I'm on my way.
I see you smile at me,
for a moment everything is right;
Then I see her coming back so I walk off,
I'm on my way, away.
It's hurt me so bad, leaving the first time, coming back, and leaving again;
I don't want to look at you, or hear your perfect voice;
I'm leaving you, and hopefully never coming back;
I'm on my way, away.
I know I'll get better; time heals all wounds;
but how long is it gonna take?
I'll never forget you completely but know that
I'm on my way, away.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Saturday, August 05, 2006
MY BABY!!
HISHAM..we named him.He came into this world on 13th july...to fill our lives with joy.
He is so tiny miny...small small,delicate,chubby ,soft-soft,pink -pink....just cant believe that he was the one who had been giving me all those kicks!!!...hehe!
THANK U GOD once gain...for Hisham.Hope we be good parents to him...and hope he has a good life.!
Monday, April 03, 2006
oops....kicks!!
yesterday...2 April 2006 has been very special for me,my sweetheart hubby...and our baby!!
I have been perceiving my baby's movements since couple of month now...but now those little taps have changed into little kicks!!...
and my would be baby is usually more active when i want to rest...when ever it would kick...I would tell my hubby ,and he would quickly keep his hand over my tummy ,leaving behind all work he would be doing...hoping to feel the baby's kicks..!!,,hehe!!
But he never could feel...the baby would become silent by then...and the poor would be dad...would make a long face ...disappointed...hehe!
I would try to pacify him ...saying ..."our baby likes to play HIDE N SEEK with u,sweetheart,thats why he hides inside mommy when u try to catch it"..hehe!!
YESTERDAY night...as soon as i lay down ...the baby started its activity....I quickly but gently placed my hubby's hands on my tummmy....AND HE FELT THE BABY!!!...
My dear was sooooo happy,excited and thrilled to feel his baby....he placed his ears now to feel and hear better(leaving me uncomforatble with his heavy head on me)....so i asked him to move....but the baby' dad was not still satisfied,he again [laced his hand on me...and baby was also responding to his dad so well...both played like this till 1o'clock in the night....
its was so nice.... such a wonderful feeling....seeing my partner play with the would be baby....*touchwood*...THANK U GOD!
I have been perceiving my baby's movements since couple of month now...but now those little taps have changed into little kicks!!...
and my would be baby is usually more active when i want to rest...when ever it would kick...I would tell my hubby ,and he would quickly keep his hand over my tummy ,leaving behind all work he would be doing...hoping to feel the baby's kicks..!!,,hehe!!
But he never could feel...the baby would become silent by then...and the poor would be dad...would make a long face ...disappointed...hehe!
I would try to pacify him ...saying ..."our baby likes to play HIDE N SEEK with u,sweetheart,thats why he hides inside mommy when u try to catch it"..hehe!!
YESTERDAY night...as soon as i lay down ...the baby started its activity....I quickly but gently placed my hubby's hands on my tummmy....AND HE FELT THE BABY!!!...
My dear was sooooo happy,excited and thrilled to feel his baby....he placed his ears now to feel and hear better(leaving me uncomforatble with his heavy head on me)....so i asked him to move....but the baby' dad was not still satisfied,he again [laced his hand on me...and baby was also responding to his dad so well...both played like this till 1o'clock in the night....
its was so nice.... such a wonderful feeling....seeing my partner play with the would be baby....*touchwood*...THANK U GOD!
Monday, March 13, 2006
Would b baby BLUES!..WHAT DO I DO!!
The other day we had a departmental meeting,after the meeting i was chatting with a collegue of mine(mother of 3 kids)
She asked me " which month now(of pregnancy)"
I said " Sixth month has just started "
She gave me astonished looks and expressions and said " You dont look like you are gonna start 6th month na "..seeing directly at my tummy...!
I tried to make excuses and said " nahi ,nahi,aisa nahi hai...i'm wearing a loose coat na today,may be thats the reason its not obvious "
But she wasnt conviced with my explaination ,gave me a dissatisfied look and said " Noo!....even then ,u dont look like..."
Finally i asked her what should do to..look like
She said " EAT!! "....ok,okkk...
The other day i saw Hritik Roshan's wife' pic in the news paper(i think she is in her 8th month)...her tummy is really sooo big...i wonder what the lady is eating...hehee!!
Again yesterday my sister in law had visited her...thank God she was cautious enough not to stare directly at my tummy,but she did notice it..
Thats the reason she said " U dont seem to have put on weight,the way you should have by now...tell me did your weight increase in the last check up? "
I said " No "(infact it had decreased a lil last month,but i didnt tell her)
She said "EAT..everything,dont bother about weight gain now,you will reduce after delivery..but now EAT every now and then.
This did not end there...my sweet SIL then said " the new born will be FAIR if u EAT plenty of Pomogranates and Apples "
To this my dear MIL also made her contribution and added " baby will be fair if u DRINK milk Kesar(Saffron) "...ok,okkk...
NOW, how do i explain to my dear dear people that beacuase this is my first pregnancy ,the tone of my abdominal muscle will be very good and thats the reason my tummy is not sooo visible as of now...it will become obvious in the later months of pregnancy!! what do i do to make my self..LOOK LIKE PREGNANT!!
AND...colour of the baby will be depend on the genes genes he inherits!!!...THANK GOD!!they did not ask me to apply FAIR N LOVELY on my tummy saying that it would penetrate my skin,uterine wall etc and show its effect on the baby...heheee!!!
BUT....whats so wrong even if my baby is born dark chocolate coloured..BIG DEAL??!!....it still remains mine!!
My mommy dear is nitting a sweater for the baby...shoo shweet!!( though i didnt like the colour of the wool she has chosen)and my MIL has asked me not to scratch my tummy even if i feel itchy or else it will give me ugly strech n scratch marks...This is a good sweet advice!
Anyways......HAPPY HOLI TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!....ENJOY!!!!
She asked me " which month now(of pregnancy)"
I said " Sixth month has just started "
She gave me astonished looks and expressions and said " You dont look like you are gonna start 6th month na "..seeing directly at my tummy...!
I tried to make excuses and said " nahi ,nahi,aisa nahi hai...i'm wearing a loose coat na today,may be thats the reason its not obvious "
But she wasnt conviced with my explaination ,gave me a dissatisfied look and said " Noo!....even then ,u dont look like..."
Finally i asked her what should do to..look like
She said " EAT!! "....ok,okkk...
The other day i saw Hritik Roshan's wife' pic in the news paper(i think she is in her 8th month)...her tummy is really sooo big...i wonder what the lady is eating...hehee!!
Again yesterday my sister in law had visited her...thank God she was cautious enough not to stare directly at my tummy,but she did notice it..
Thats the reason she said " U dont seem to have put on weight,the way you should have by now...tell me did your weight increase in the last check up? "
I said " No "(infact it had decreased a lil last month,but i didnt tell her)
She said "EAT..everything,dont bother about weight gain now,you will reduce after delivery..but now EAT every now and then.
This did not end there...my sweet SIL then said " the new born will be FAIR if u EAT plenty of Pomogranates and Apples "
To this my dear MIL also made her contribution and added " baby will be fair if u DRINK milk Kesar(Saffron) "...ok,okkk...
NOW, how do i explain to my dear dear people that beacuase this is my first pregnancy ,the tone of my abdominal muscle will be very good and thats the reason my tummy is not sooo visible as of now...it will become obvious in the later months of pregnancy!! what do i do to make my self..LOOK LIKE PREGNANT!!
AND...colour of the baby will be depend on the genes genes he inherits!!!...THANK GOD!!they did not ask me to apply FAIR N LOVELY on my tummy saying that it would penetrate my skin,uterine wall etc and show its effect on the baby...heheee!!!
BUT....whats so wrong even if my baby is born dark chocolate coloured..BIG DEAL??!!....it still remains mine!!
My mommy dear is nitting a sweater for the baby...shoo shweet!!( though i didnt like the colour of the wool she has chosen)and my MIL has asked me not to scratch my tummy even if i feel itchy or else it will give me ugly strech n scratch marks...This is a good sweet advice!
Anyways......HAPPY HOLI TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!....ENJOY!!!!
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Feeling Better!!
(one of the Medical Representatives gave me small booklet by name “Choti choti baatien”…I liked a few things in there…thought of posting one of them…)
** When you are feeling down,
Focus your thoughts on this question.
What can you do that would help you feel better?
Instead of filling your mind with doubt,self pity,resentment,regret and despair,
Fill it with thoughts and plans for moving positively forward.
There is something that will take your focus off, of whatever has already happened and direct your thoughts firmly towards the best of what can be.
Pay no attention to how you’re supposed to feel or how you’re expected to feel.
Decide for yourself how good you would like to feel,and then take the steps that will get you there.
It will likely be much easier than you think.
For once you choose to feel better,
It quickly begins to happen.
It sounds too simple to be true,yet it works with surprising and delightful effectiveness.
When you decide to help yourself feel better,you will.
What can you do that will help you feel better?
You’re just a moment away from making it happen!! **
** When you are feeling down,
Focus your thoughts on this question.
What can you do that would help you feel better?
Instead of filling your mind with doubt,self pity,resentment,regret and despair,
Fill it with thoughts and plans for moving positively forward.
There is something that will take your focus off, of whatever has already happened and direct your thoughts firmly towards the best of what can be.
Pay no attention to how you’re supposed to feel or how you’re expected to feel.
Decide for yourself how good you would like to feel,and then take the steps that will get you there.
It will likely be much easier than you think.
For once you choose to feel better,
It quickly begins to happen.
It sounds too simple to be true,yet it works with surprising and delightful effectiveness.
When you decide to help yourself feel better,you will.
What can you do that will help you feel better?
You’re just a moment away from making it happen!! **
Sunday, February 19, 2006
LONG BREAK!!
Writing the blog after soooo many days…all this while have been missing my blog,and all my blog friends..and now that iam writing ,I don’t know how to start again…hehe!!
Okkk..i’ll just highlight few things that have happened since my last post…these r not in an order just penning down what ever is coming in my mind first…
*Highlights*
- Mom and Dad have returned from my bhaiya’s place…when they were leaiving India I was thinking that I couldn’t live without them for two months…but thanks to my lovely inlaws and my friends…I didn’t feel their absence much…two months just flewoff …mom n dad r again here in Hyderabad,beside me when ever I need them…
- My Bhaiya has been blessed with a cute baby boy.We named him Zuhair.I liked my new nephew so much that I see his pic almost 5-6 times daily ..hoping to give Zuhair a cousin as cute as him!!…hehee!!
- Enjoyed a lottttt with my guest…this bhabi had two kids and they were a good timepaas…The younger one (1an 1/2 yrs old),was so cute ,naughty and lovable…he kept us all busy with his activities….very fond of ball,balloons , learning to talk …made us laugh with his baby talk….i had become so attached with this family….cried a lot when they were leaving yesterday..
- Have gone for my checkups regularly…and have gained 2kgs weights till now…
Everyone at home wants me to change my Gynaecologist now….I was seeing Dr.Padma’latha till now…but she doesn’t have her own nursing home…so my people want me to visit Fernandez Hospital(a renowed one here)for this months checkup…changing the doctor has made me more superstitious…somehow…I had begun to feel very safe in Dr.Latha hands….anyways…have to change..
- Have cancelled my plan of appearing for Plab…I could prepare…and without any preparation I don’t want to go all the way to Mumbai …to have a practice of taking an exam again…am sad about it…but I could do much about it….i started sitting in the library after my job for studying….but my inlaws and parents were feeling that I am being careless and straining myself too much…so finish…that ends it there
- 14 th Feb this was my first time I celebrated Valentines Day!!…last year my hubby wasn’t in India…the whole day he was with me only…he had post duty off that day…..accompanied me to my hospital also and sat in the library there.Later in the evening we went to Lumbini Park,did boating there…then had dinner …BUT…..i had one of the pregnancy mood swings that day…..i don’t understand why I was off that day…he did so many things for me …but I just didn’t enjoy it that day….made his day also miserable…then next day…when I thought about it…felt very guilty,and apologized.
These pregnancy mood swing r really verrrry bad….in one such state of off mood I had begun to dislike this baby in my womb…just started feeling that I don’t want to live,I want to end my life ,wanted to run away to some place where no one recognizes me and this baby seemed like a burden,because of which I had to live…then later realized that it’s a sin…God please Forgive me for letting these stupid thoughts enter my mind…Sorry God..
- 4 kittens had made entry into our home…Actually theirs is a sad strory…the mom cat was killed by a street dog…may be in a fight to protect her kittens…so these orphan kitten came over here….we were giving them milk ..since no ne was there to feed them and protect them…but I am so scared of cats that I didn’t even touch them once…and would be jumping when ever they passed from near me….Now only one is remaining(this one also remains out usually just come for milk)….two of them were stolen…and our maid took away the third one cuz she has many rats in her home…!
- Have Gone to the Annual Exhibition here in hyd 4 times…I like going to the exhibition!!!..still like the swings,magic shows,stalls from all over India,the Dogs show,Mouth ka kuwa..etc etc..
Have seen the Nizams Jewels…...wow!!!! …amazing collection…great riches!!..i think ladies those days really dint have much work….just getting decked up from head to toe….but must say….wow!! wow!!
Have seen two movies-Rang de Basanti and The Angrez...liked both of them...Rang de Basanti is too good!
- Received fone call twice from Geo, and thankfully have been in regular touch with him…the first time he called…I was on my way back home and could hardly hear him…the second time,it was very clear…and dear Geo…U have a very mature masculine mota mota voice….hehe!!
- chatted with Jithu once.My dear friend Sujit has been sending offlines…he is now in US …May God bless him with all success..Another very close friend of mine Maseer has left for US…he too was a gem pal!
- and TODAY is Mitesh’s Engagement…he is getting engaged to Dimple…Iam soooo happy for my sweet friend…may u both make a wonderful couple together….the party might be going on right now,and they might all be dancing…I miss it so much…no problem.., u dance in mumbai and I’ll dance for u both here in Hyderabad….AJA WE MAAHI LETS DO BALLE!! BALLE!!….hehee!!....Congrates dear!!!!
Okkk..i’ll just highlight few things that have happened since my last post…these r not in an order just penning down what ever is coming in my mind first…
*Highlights*
- Mom and Dad have returned from my bhaiya’s place…when they were leaiving India I was thinking that I couldn’t live without them for two months…but thanks to my lovely inlaws and my friends…I didn’t feel their absence much…two months just flewoff …mom n dad r again here in Hyderabad,beside me when ever I need them…
- My Bhaiya has been blessed with a cute baby boy.We named him Zuhair.I liked my new nephew so much that I see his pic almost 5-6 times daily ..hoping to give Zuhair a cousin as cute as him!!…hehee!!
- Enjoyed a lottttt with my guest…this bhabi had two kids and they were a good timepaas…The younger one (1an 1/2 yrs old),was so cute ,naughty and lovable…he kept us all busy with his activities….very fond of ball,balloons , learning to talk …made us laugh with his baby talk….i had become so attached with this family….cried a lot when they were leaving yesterday..
- Have gone for my checkups regularly…and have gained 2kgs weights till now…
Everyone at home wants me to change my Gynaecologist now….I was seeing Dr.Padma’latha till now…but she doesn’t have her own nursing home…so my people want me to visit Fernandez Hospital(a renowed one here)for this months checkup…changing the doctor has made me more superstitious…somehow…I had begun to feel very safe in Dr.Latha hands….anyways…have to change..
- Have cancelled my plan of appearing for Plab…I could prepare…and without any preparation I don’t want to go all the way to Mumbai …to have a practice of taking an exam again…am sad about it…but I could do much about it….i started sitting in the library after my job for studying….but my inlaws and parents were feeling that I am being careless and straining myself too much…so finish…that ends it there
- 14 th Feb this was my first time I celebrated Valentines Day!!…last year my hubby wasn’t in India…the whole day he was with me only…he had post duty off that day…..accompanied me to my hospital also and sat in the library there.Later in the evening we went to Lumbini Park,did boating there…then had dinner …BUT…..i had one of the pregnancy mood swings that day…..i don’t understand why I was off that day…he did so many things for me …but I just didn’t enjoy it that day….made his day also miserable…then next day…when I thought about it…felt very guilty,and apologized.
These pregnancy mood swing r really verrrry bad….in one such state of off mood I had begun to dislike this baby in my womb…just started feeling that I don’t want to live,I want to end my life ,wanted to run away to some place where no one recognizes me and this baby seemed like a burden,because of which I had to live…then later realized that it’s a sin…God please Forgive me for letting these stupid thoughts enter my mind…Sorry God..
- 4 kittens had made entry into our home…Actually theirs is a sad strory…the mom cat was killed by a street dog…may be in a fight to protect her kittens…so these orphan kitten came over here….we were giving them milk ..since no ne was there to feed them and protect them…but I am so scared of cats that I didn’t even touch them once…and would be jumping when ever they passed from near me….Now only one is remaining(this one also remains out usually just come for milk)….two of them were stolen…and our maid took away the third one cuz she has many rats in her home…!
- Have Gone to the Annual Exhibition here in hyd 4 times…I like going to the exhibition!!!..still like the swings,magic shows,stalls from all over India,the Dogs show,Mouth ka kuwa..etc etc..
Have seen the Nizams Jewels…...wow!!!! …amazing collection…great riches!!..i think ladies those days really dint have much work….just getting decked up from head to toe….but must say….wow!! wow!!
Have seen two movies-Rang de Basanti and The Angrez...liked both of them...Rang de Basanti is too good!
- Received fone call twice from Geo, and thankfully have been in regular touch with him…the first time he called…I was on my way back home and could hardly hear him…the second time,it was very clear…and dear Geo…U have a very mature masculine mota mota voice….hehe!!
- chatted with Jithu once.My dear friend Sujit has been sending offlines…he is now in US …May God bless him with all success..Another very close friend of mine Maseer has left for US…he too was a gem pal!
- and TODAY is Mitesh’s Engagement…he is getting engaged to Dimple…Iam soooo happy for my sweet friend…may u both make a wonderful couple together….the party might be going on right now,and they might all be dancing…I miss it so much…no problem.., u dance in mumbai and I’ll dance for u both here in Hyderabad….AJA WE MAAHI LETS DO BALLE!! BALLE!!….hehee!!....Congrates dear!!!!
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