DNB vs. ME…

I had the DNB entrance Exam yesterday… and must say ….what a horrible experience!”

I hardly was prepared for the entrance though I knew the dates since a long time….its my stupidity and laziness….
I read only for a week that too not seriously….Actually on Saturday I was telling my husband that I will not write the exam with such meagre preparations..but he did not listen to me ,was adamant and told me “nothing doing ,u have to go.Just go and attempt atleast,u will have exam experience”….so there was nothing more I could do but try to grab as much as possible in my minute grey cells…at the last moment..

The exam had two sessions…I went for the morning session….took the question paper and the answer sheet and sat their miserably for 3 hours…..first of all I didn’t know the answer for most of the questions and on top of that I had such morning sickness(may be it was aggravated more because of the sleepless night I had on Saturday)….at one point of time the nausea was so unbearable that I thought I will leave the hall taking permission….anyways I had sit there because I knew we were not permitted to leave the hall before time….so,I sat ….gulping the water brash that filled my mouth every now n then….mean while trying to read the questions and answer…and to tell u the truth I marked answers for most of the questions doing “in pin safety pin ,in- pin- out!!”….cuz there was no negative marking for the wrong answers …so on whichever option my finger would stop with the “in pin” I would mark that option as the answer…..hehe!!…what to do, a person so unprepared like me has no other way!!! I remembered the days of my past when I used to study so hard ….study for long hours till mom shouted at me and asked me to close my books and sleep for sometime…I used to be so well prepared for all the exams…..is this the same me??I wonder…

Anyways…this was DNB……I still have PLAB….which is in March… And I have to do very well in PLAB…cuz if I don’t …then my validity for IETLS(English exam)which is only for 2 years will end ….and I will have to appear for IELTS again if I want to give PLAB a second chance…
March which seemed to be so faaaaaaar away suddenly has come so close…its only two and half months from now….and I have sooooo much to study…..and we will be having guest at home for the next two month….And my hubby who wants to stick to me all the time he is at home(now-a –days iam calling him fevicol...heheee!!) he doesnt want me to do anything butjust sit with him and do”time paas”...hehee!!.. PLUS this nausea and my job!….todays headlines in the news paper read- ‘Lure of job derails further studies in young college graduates’ so true it is….i shouldn’t have taken up the job soon after my internship instead should have concentrated on studies…..

Oh God!!!….show me just one tiny miny hole through which I can escape all these situations.

Prayer time ::(his is school times prayer song I could remember just the last part of it)
“Showers of blessings..
Showers of blessings we need,
Mercy drops round us are falling ….
But for the showers we plead….”

i wish I could just skip this period in my life…I wish when I open my eyes tomorrow morning I get a PG degree with my name written on it in front of me…hehe!!
But then…”no gains without pains!!”