Updates!

Day before yesterday thought of taking up CNS but Hisham kept me busy during the day and Riyaz did not allow me to sit up late in the night….had an argument with him about this before sleeping…had to leave CNS half done…

Yesterday took CVS,thought if this is done then I’ll finish GIT and Renal system also cuz these are small topics….but going into the depth of CVS was taking a lot of time….so started doing just the previous papers…finished GIT before slleping…today morning took Renal….At this pace I wont achieve anything…im sure…but still I’l try…better than wasting time the whole day….

Hisham’s activities are increasing day by day…he has become a full time paas.Entertains everyone- any visitor who comes home,any person on the roads when we go out,all salesmen n salesgirls in shopping malls….he smiles and ‘patoafies’ everyone!...but touch his chubby cheeks and he will start screaming…he hates people touching his cheeks!
He is crawing all over the house,previously he never used to enter the kitchen(the coirmat in front of the kitchen door ,I guess irritated him…so he used to stop there)…but now…he is everywhere….

The Water dispensor is something which fascinates him the most…as the finger trickles down his hands he enjoys!! Laughs n laughs!..im changing his clothes three four times in a day! ...the lil chap has his own likes and dislikes!

The best is Ather bhaiya(riyaz’ relative who stays with us)…plays race in crawling with him….as soon as ather bhaiya says ‘first-first’ Hisham takes his position and starts crawling,laughing to his might!!
He has learn to clap his hands…and when I say ‘give me five hishaam’ he raises his hand n places it in my hand…he imitates us when we do’aa chuchu yaha baith,dana kha, pani pi’…when he is doing some mischief and i stop him by saying " NO Hishaam" he starts swaying his head from side to side as if he himself is saying NO,NO hehe!!!....if he is not in mood to eat cerelac he just starts swaying his head 'NO.NO'....he looks very cute…my darling baby!

Now a days he is moving about the furniture with support…and is practicing to stand without support.It was 1 o’clock in the night of 11th march when he first stood without support…he was very proud of himself after doing so!! I immediately rang up my mom and told her that hisham is standing without support…she laughed and bleed him and said ‘tum hi nazar lagate rehte usko’ ...

Aaah! and how can i forget to mention his kisses!!...whenever my sweet cuddly baby is in full mood,excited over something,or just happy....he generously loads u with his gummy kisses!...there is no particular place for his kisses...they can fall anywhere....your nose,forehead,hair,mouth...anywhere!!!...this act of expressing his love is so cute that you forget the pools of his sticky saliva all over you!!...hehe!!!....love u shonuuu!love u junnuu! love you munnuuuu!!!!...ummmmmuh!

So with this All Time Entertainment…do I sit with books and miss these cute activities….NAH!!!!!

Had a nice day yesterday…domestic …but still cool ….tensionfree,hasslefree…

Got up in the morning….maid hadn’t turned up….prepared a quick breakfast for hubby,packed his lunchbox…he becomes extra affectionate whenever I have to make breakfast ect ..for him….such hai yaar-‘A mans way to heart is through his stomach’…hehe! …waved him bye…

Made a detailed breakfast for myself and my MIL…by then my baby awoke….now-a-days he has started fighting like sounds if he doesnt find his parents on waking up….so gave him hug…tried to cheer him….gave him a bath(have marveled in this field now!!!)
….fed him –banana mashed in milk…

Then he was busy with his playful ,inquisitive activities…Didn’t have to make lunch…SIL had sent lunch and it was sufficient enough to serve for dinner too...wow! what a relief !!!

Then logged in …. Had to return a few things to 'someone'….had this in my mind since long....it seemed as though I had a grrrrreat responsibility on my shoulders (let me mention- my tender shoulders..hehe!!)
Even while returning these things,I tried to be somewhat bitchy and vampish…hehe!!!...
I do not say that the 'person' was particulary fond of me or may be dint like me from the beginning itself…but to know it myself ….for sure that im being hated by that 'particular person' ….feels relaxing,somewhat……
But one thing yaar….i really wonder….when the person has soooooooooooo many other friends of same gender as me….and is constantly in touch with them all….then why was the ban imposed only on me???....may be im very dangerous….hehe!!...am i??....people who meet me,know me in person tell me that im a very mild kind of creature….is it all false??...
was it right that my baby was cursed….and when I just pretended to curse ‘the persons’ would be kids…I annoyed ‘the person’ enormously…no one ever cared to understand how I felt when my newborn was cursed ….reason behind the curse-I was being an enthusiastic new mom and was sharing my baby’s developments with someone I felt was my friend….but even my occasional smses were misunderstood(my smses were being ignored since feb….i had asked the reason in between….reply was ‘no reason’….how was I to understand that ignoring my sms post 18thjuly was something different….how was I to understand that this time it had a reason….i wanst told ,I had been irritating!!!)….my baby cursed,and I was made to feel like a big outlaw…

anyways…yesterday I have severed even the last few strings of the relation that had begun to take an ugly shape …though silent…now –hate me as best as u can for the rest of ur life….curse me ,not my child…

The evening was pleasant….hubby noticed that I was a little put off when he returned….he asked me if it was PMS…I said ‘no’….so he said ‘u are upset about something…its clear….lets go out for shopping.or just an outing’….i wanst in mood….but he insisted “ u wanted to shop for footwear since so many days,u haven t been to ur beautician also….lets do that,plus we will see what else we can do”.I got ready reluctantly…and we went…and must say….sudden ,undecided outings are much much better than the ones whish are previously planned.We had a nice time ….shopped footwear for myself and hisham,and took one bag for Riyaz…had dinner out….sat ,and played with Hisham at tankbund till midnight…then returned…and …
It was a good day after all…..with my family….with my tensions finished…wow!!! hahahaaa!!!

Finally!

Finally...did it!...6th March 2007.

"Go Away!"

This was something i needed to hear.My mind wouldnt agree on anything less than this....and i finally got to hear this...

I have been very rude,very impolite,very harsh.....abused,cursed,threatened,blackmailed....hurt someones emotions IMMENSELY....TORTURED,TORMENTED someones feelings....whatever possible i could do to make myself hear these words....i have done...

i have done it for my own sake...i did not mean any of the abuses or the curses

i had no rights to be so selfish....but i did it...somehow, i did it cuz i feel that living with someones hatred is much easier....so....i have invited hatred....hate me as best as u can....

yes,i had been a hard nut to crack